I lost it...

Oh Man, did I lose my temper. It was bad. Like most any mom, I've had tons to do, and never enough time to do it all. It has been piling up recently. Tonight I was particularly stressed, as I had a final project to finish for one of my college classes. I was already just not dealing well. It just so happens that the 12 year old had been being belligerent most of the evening (because first I told her to do her homework, then we made her look up words in the paper dictionary instead of the online source). That caused more discontent with other members of the household. Then dinner kept getting held up, because the chicken just wasn't cooking fast enough...and then when I finally did get plates ready, the son complained about having to taste something he didn't like. That was it. My mouth got started, and it didn't stop. I feel so terrible now, oh, it almost makes me sick. I didn't call anybody names, or even say 'bad' words. But my total selfishness really came out. I think I made certain members of my family feel like they weren't good enough, even though they really had been trying very hard. And now I can never get that back, even though I really didn't mean it the way it came out. I've apologized, but it still doesn't feel right. This stinks.